The RV Life is for Me?

A lot has been happening.

The husbands gone for some time with his job, so its just me and my little one. My best friend has bee so awesome and she has totally helped me out in so many ways.

Well last year, 2017, my family and I have been living paycheck to paycheck, just like every other family in this crazy world, however God has given us a chance to figure this out.

I finally got the courage to just break the lease and leave. My little one and I are going to room with my BFF, and my 2 Dogs are going to accompany us.

Its going to be an adventure, we will be staying in her RV. Yes that is right RV. I think the most scary part about this adventure is the trust and faith that I can keep my shiz together.  HaHa!

The hopes are to save and be able to find a home for sale in Sunny San Diego. I’ve taken the step to make it happen by breaking a lease and packing my stuff up, but the true test will be in a couple of months.

Whats the most bold thing you have ever done?

It’s Okay, Mom

I sat at the table yesterday crying. Looking at my child feeling like a Bad Mom.

My daughter asked for meatballs and green beans for dinner, I got home later than expected. I had to be somewhere in about an hour, I didn’t have everything in the house to make her the meal she asked for, instead I went to Subway, and got her a meatball marinara sandwich, hopping this will satisfy her craving.

She looked up at me and gave me a kiss. touched my face and said, ” Its okay, Mom.” Then hugged me. She then processed to do something silly, looked at me smiled and said, see silly me.

She gets it. She knows I am having a rough patch. That I miss her father, my partner, my best friend! Only 401 Days left!


Your not that good. Tuck your ears on up in that hat, wear all the gear, make sure to look the part… but damn can you at least play the part?

“Can I go home now?”…. after he has gone ofer… if you don’t know what ofer is.. that means you didn’t get on base, nor have a SAC at least. “yes please, pack your shit.. bye. No one wants to play with you anyway”

Ugh SO OVER THE TOP! When did it become about who has the coolest stuff, the best gear, and ONLY smashing? What happened to playing and having some fun. Its mixed, we all play, we do the part, but when you aint having fun no one wants to play.

….. they stayed, they played….

Eeeeefinking Slow-pitch


Merry Christmas!

Happy New Year!

Whats your resolution? >>>>>> Oh you know, loose weight, go to the gym, cook more often, save some money, spend less time on social media >>>>>>>>>>>

>>>> 2 weeks later, haven’t made it to the gym, still eating out, gained weight, making even more plans on social media with friends, oh and still broke!


My little one just turned 3!!! What a fun day. The stress of it being what she asked for was crazy but totally worth the smiles and laughs and the memories.

See, I only remember one birthday, and it wasn’t my 16th, 18th, 21st, or 30th, it was my 4th or 5th…. and I only remember that because my mother wrapped a gift in newspaper funnies. I thought it is was so cool to have newspaper wrapping. My cake was white, with the little round rainbow dots all over it, I had a piñata, we were on our back porch patio the looked out in grassy area of the big park in base housing. This is my fondest memory as a child’s birthday. Simple and fun…

Its funny how now children birthday are both simple and elaborate. We as parents choose which way we want to go. For my littles ones 1st and 2nd B-day was super simple. Literally family only on the 1st, and on the 2nd birthday she had a small park birthday with cupcakes.

For some reason though for her 3rd birthday I felt the need and urge to do a tad bit more. I started wondering why, then all my psychology courses I had taken to be somewhere awesome in life in a few years because I was going to be some big time psychologist or something… anyway, they took a course of action and realized my urge to do more was because at the age of 3, toddlers tend to really start remember and recognizing and holding on to things more… therefore I wanted to do my best to give her the best 3rd birthday. That way for her 4th, or 5th, or 6th… if we are not somewhere stable because the military is unknown and you never really know whats goin

  The Birthday!!!!

“Hey sweetie, what kind of birthday party would you like?” as I asked my soon to be 3 year old.

“Um, nanananananananananananana BATGIRL!” as she danced around Chick-fil-a in her rainboots, puffy coat, and batgirl beanie. Mind you we are not in Cali at this time, but instead, a freezing cold Central Texas.

For the next 2 weeks, Im the slave of Etsy, Pinterest, and Amazon. Looking for the best ideas and the coolest gems and the most cost efficient gadgets. Getting cake ideas, cookie ideas, game ideas.

After all the money spend and time and energy spent on the internet, the birthday was a success. Easy, not to expensive, and kept kiddos entertained as well as parents happy and relaxed.

From batgirl themed, to princess bounce house, slap bracelets, piñata, coloring table, and bubbles it was a total success.

Here are some of the fun to see!

Cake by Blondies Sweet Shop

Birthday Get Up by Bows & Ballers by Gwen




A Phone Call or Text?

Living a lifestyle where you say goodbye sucks. You never really know when you get to speak to your loved one(s) when they are away. All you can really do, is just stay busy, allow yourself to miss them from time to time, then stay busy again. I know that is what I do.

I fill my calendar with all sorts of things, sports, gym, coffee dates, hair appointments, dog appointments, laundry, dishes, cleaning the carpets, taking my kiddo to school, wondering aimlessly through down town window shopping, taking the kiddo to the zoo, or park, or museum.. the list will go on if I felt like writing that much.

Just when you really are about to hit the wall and break down, and the world feels like its caving in, the little text out of no where that says “Hey”.. just “hey” melted my heart! Brings tears to my eyes, and Joy to every fiber in my body! My light has turned back on! Then comes the best part… A PHONE CALL!

Listening to his words, and hearing his voice.. “What are ya’ll doin?” this words put a smile on my face because he doesn’t miss a beat. Its like he hasn’t even left, he is right down the road at work or something. He is, he is at work.. just a much much much farther walk/drive/flight… but he asked the important questions.. what are YA’LL doin.

My world was starting to move a little a slow, but I’m back now. I feel rejuvenated.

A phone call or text, thats all it takes, sometimes.

Vegas  Baby!

Man if I was to go back in time and tell my younger self, “when your friends offer to pay your way to Vegas and experience the crazy.—– you should take it!”

I went to Vegas about a month ago, for a Womens Worlds Softball Tournament, hosted by  Global Sports Leauge (GSL). While the tournament, our team didn’t do to hot due to “drama” of course… ugh women!!! The aftermath was very entertaining!

The first night we went to the bar Gold Spike, somewhere around old Vegas, and we had a good time. The second night was by far the most entertaining. From drunkin adult board and puzzle games, to beer stealing jail thugs, and hoping a taxi to make it to a strip club, where my BFF puked in her mouth 3xs and swallowed to try and save it, but just didn’t make it, and we were not allowed to re-enter!

While Vegas was fun, as a mother, and having the adult life and responsibilities, I think I rather go see a show, eat at a Gordon Ramsey restaurant, see the lights, and see my daughters face light up with amazement of the colors and lights of the night.

I get another chance coming up this weekend, Vegas bound, this time my little one gets to come and pending on our game schedules we get to see the Vegas lights and maybe some kid friendly shows!

Daily Prompt: Clutch

As I load my daughter in the car seat I clutch her hand tight and tell her we are going to the airport. she looked up at me with sleepy eyes, then searches her surroundings and lands her eyes on his face. She smiles and says, Daddy!

My eyes fill with tears but I hold them back. I’ve got to be strong. She can not see me break, not yet.

He clutches his bags in hands and throws them in the back, lowering his eyes to shoes. Meeting each others eyes, is a hard task this morning. We don’t say much but talk about the night before.

We reassure each other that this will be fast trip. That it could be worst. That we should be thankful for the time we had, even when it was an unexpected surprise.

I pull up to the drop-off zone of the airport. Its a mad house, a day before Thanksgiving.

I park the car, get out to walk our sleepy daughter, so she can say goodbye, give big big kisses and hug her daddy’s neck. She ask him where he’s going? He keeps a strong stiff face, and smiles. “Daddy has got to go to work, baby. I’ll be back soon. I love you.”

He closes the door, and turns to me. Tears are rolling down my face. My heart is breaking. I am being selfish, I don’t want him to go. I want him to stay with us. Spend the holidays with us.

“See ya later hunny. I love you! Be safe! Call when you can!” I lean in for my final kiss before he heads out.

Until our next unexpected surprise… military life living it everyday as a military family!

via Daily Prompt: Clutch

Flipping the Switch

Its interesting how a child can flip a switch so fast. They can be tired and cranky one moment and then up and ready to go the next. For example, my little one was just laying down watching Disney’s The Princess and the Frog, about to fall asleep. She lost it because she didn’t want to sleep. So she jumped up grabbed her stool, went to the kitchen and attempting to find the cookies.. What a winner!

We were at the park today as well, she meet a new little girl to play with. She started running away from her because the little girl wanted to play with her sticks and rock, then she was holding her hand calling her little friend to come one, lets do this, lets go swing.

I wish it was that easy to switch it on or off like that and get away with it. Sad to say i can not do that now because i have parent. Oh man!

via Daily Prompt: Interest

Birthday Blues

It was my 33rd Birthday yesterday. I did nothing. Well tried anyway.

I vowed not to clean the house, touch the laundry, watch no tv, do no dishes, LET MY CHILD GO WILD.

My Facebook blew up with “HAPPY BIRTHDAYS”

I got emails saying “Happy Birthday heres a GIFT FOR YOU”

While looking on the outside I seem good, the highlight of my birthday, was talking with my friends face to face, they said Happy Birthday to me, Face to Face. We held a conversation about everything, they handed me a birthday beverage ( it was good, but not as tasty as a craft)

Birthday Blues you say, it was just another day. I didn’t even have a cake or cupcake…



Its been almost 2 weeks since my husband flew to his new duty stations. He is doing well, you can tell that being away from his one true love “his daughter” is the hardest thing he has ever done. He is so strong but doesn’t give himself enough credit!

Men, it is okay to cry! Tears show a different kind of strength. He is a passionate man, and as much as it breaks my heart to see him hurt, it warms my hard to know he isn’t afraid to show his true self to me, his daughters, and even some of his co-workers. Sure they may poke fun, but you know what, FUCK EM! If those co-workers can’t respect who he is and what he sacrifices, then those are not the ones to surround himself with. Okay rant over……


I served for the US Navy, 8 years. I choose to separate in 2013. As an active duty person, the community is strong and bold, but sitting on the other side as a spouse, the community and bond is 10x’s stronger. A military family is family, plain and simple.

The past 2 weeks, the military community has been there for me and my daughter more than i can express. Calling to check up on us, inviting us out to their place for dinner, coming over to my home for coffee, beach play dates, and dropping their day to spend with me at the ball park.

Now its not just the military community that i cherish, but my Church family as well. I cling to my church family. They have been in my life before my daughter made her debut. They gave me my first try at taking care of children in the Kids Ministry. It is there  I learned something about myself, I have no patience. And still don’t. I pray for patience EVERY DARN DAY!


Friendships are what you make of them. They can be strong, subtle, or even the whats up how ya doing  type. However with each friendship you build it to what fits your circle. My friendships are categorized by Church, Military, Softball, and everything else. They are 3 completely different categorize and they each hit a spot in my heart. Some too over lap! THOSE ARE THE BEST FRIENDSHIPS!

I am going to be a little selfish, I love my different families, because each help me out so that i can have my healthy release of playing  ball. Everyone has their outlet, mine just happens to be on a dirt field, with a dusty glove, a 11inch or 12inch yellow stitch ball, playing a team sport where you can be play your position but play as a team. I get 50-55 mins each game of pure no worries and just play. I said I was going to be selfish, its because I am blessed with friends who are willing to lend a helping hand and help me with my daughter.